Last Bag

My therapist told me to buy condoms.
Awesome.

Picture it....You were patient when the woman in line before you loaded FOUR separate orders of groceries onto the checkout area. You ignored the screaming kids when the woman finally realized her minions had been unloading the candy section. You even lied and said it's no big deal, when she apologized for the bag boy having to go back and get the 'right" items for her WIC purchase. But you draw the line when after all of this, all of her unruliness, government assistance and holding you up....she plops down a package of condoms. Doesn't she have enough kids? (They are probably all by different dads.) This is what our tax money is going towards? psh, women these days.

One reason second marriages fail is because people are propelled into second relationships before they are ready. A new relationship can feel great, but it does not guarantee a solid relationship down the road.

You must grieve your losses and know you are whole before you consider another relationship. If you decide to get on with your life without dealing with the issues at hand, these issues will rise up at a later time. When they do, the hurt and pain will be even stronger.

H Norman Wright shares about a man he knew who got remarried before becoming fully healed. "After about four years into the remarriage, all of a sudden the man's buried feelings came out because his new partner started to exhibit some behaviors similar to his ex spouse. That triggered all the feelings that had never been dealt with and the marriage dissolved."

Healing comes from the Lord. Wholeness comes from the Lord. Not from a new relationship. Taken from my Divorce Care daily emails.

I'm pretty scared of getting into a relationship again. What if I only think I am healed? What if all of these secret buried feeling jump out and attack? (Hey, maybe the condoms are aptly named. hmm.)

I've healed a lot. Learned a lot, but I never. ever.ever.ever.ever.ever want to hurt like that again. Ever. Nor, do I want to hurt someone else because of any baggage I may have. But I've looked around, (thoroughly I might add) and I don't see any suitcases or satchels laying around. I'm pretty sure my team and I have done a good job of unpacking my bags.

I've been wrong about my perceptions before though, and I don't want to be some Trojan horse for some sweet guy.

Oh wait, what's this? One last bag? Fear of failure, with a carry on of distrust.

I guess I have some more unpacking to do. I'll bypass the Trojan horse and just walk instead. That is, until I get tired enough from carrying around these bags and choose to unpack them.