This month has been a series of "normal" days. No job searching, no daycare hunting, no financial crisis', no....setting up of anything! In Febuary we just lived.
We woke up, went to daycare/work, did our thing, did our whatever for the night (bible study, divorce care, LOST with friends,) had our bed time routine at our place and then started over again the next day.
Normalacy. Wonderful. Day to day, predictable, stress free normalacy.
Normal has two definitions:
1.Conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.
and the other
2.Serving to establish a standard.
When I first moved to Lakeland, my best friend told me "there is no normal"
As I sat in her home, surrounded by her things and trinkets collected over years of marriage, I couldn't help but feel like I had once had normal and now, I definitely did not. I felt hopeless trying to find the strength to start my life over again with three small kids.
According to definition number one, "normal" is something that is "natural, not abnormal". Well, that rules out my old life. Abuse, fighting, manipulation, fear...that's not normal.Not the common. So I guess I never had normal to begin with.
And the second definition... "Serving to establish a standard". If what I have now, this life with the kids, the safety, joy and predictability is the standard being established, I'll take it!
wonderful :)
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